12am forever

To be truthfully honest, I do feel a little constricted and a little bit naked without my personal blog. There's always the question on whether I should go back to reopening it, but I never did went back. Partly because it's unhealthy, partly because I know bad people read it (I kid).

I have so many things on my incomprehensible mind that I just need to put it down and paper doesn't seem like a nice option.

I feel effing dispossessed in the past few weeks.

My relationship with steph have been on a steep declined ever since I started giving cynical comments about her life. But that's not the real reason. I think what it really is, is that I'm afraid of continuing deeper into a committed relationship with her. Partly because I think she's not mature enough, and partly because our values (maybe principles would be a better word) are a little off alignment.

Regardless, you do sometimes get that morose feel when you look back and wished you would have done something.

For now I really am giving her a lot of serious thought and attention. But to be honest in a few days time my priorities would shift and I'll downgrade her down a few notches on the list.

Needless to say then, it's still a mighty big issue I have to tackle in a matter of time.