Forward is where we look

These few weeks have been nothing short of good. I got my Mid year Examinations result slip back and my result was disappointing as hell.
The stockdale paradox really comes into play now.
"This is a very important lesson. You must never confuse faith that you will prevail in the end -- which you can never afford to lose -- with the discipline to confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be." - James Stockdale

Over optimism is a pain in the ass sometimes. Especially in my class. Everyone wants a single digit L1R5. But how many of us can actually attain such grades. We all want this, we all want that. I myself can't even grasp properly what is current reality and what is faith.

Sometimes I wonder if things would have been different if I had not stepped into CCKS. No one knows, its also too late to find out. So I need to mature up and grow up a bit, before it might just get too late.

My mum just spoke to me about entering a polytechnic. She told me she thinks it is better if I went to NP. I'm still not giving up my AC dream though. Not because I'm sure I can make it, its not making it in that I really want, its the strive there that I want. The strive, the special push towards the impossible.

Straighten up; I'm quite sure I won't be able to take this ride without getting hurt. But I don't have a choice do I?